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love_dont_roam[Rose looks a little on edge. Partially because she's waiting for the same thing to happen as everyone else that's posted so far. She's actually just hoping to get it over with. It might be worse if she waits!]
So there've been a few returns in with the new arrivals this month. It's probably the thing here that makes me think it's got to be random, what goes on. Some things are inevitable and might start to fall into a pattern, but that? There's never any reason for some people to disappear, and when the off chance comes round and they're back? It's just as mysterious. I can't think of a single reason for it. Only time there seems to be a reason for anything is when we assign it one -- kind of like when us Wardens come here and make our deals.
[A frown. She folds her arms on her desktop.]
...Y'know I haven't made one? I have no idea what I want from the Admiral yet. Too scared to wish for something when in time I might realize I need something else even more. I tore open a TARDIS and stared into her heart to save someone I love. I can't even remember how I did it anymore -- it's blocked up in my head, like it's forbidden. That's enough for me to know I did something I shouldn't have under normal circumstances. And I can't remember what happened right after that, either. Not all of it. [A wince] But I know I was angry. And I know the Dalek Emperor and the half-million soldiers he brought with him don't even exist anymore.
[She rests her chin on her arms.]
The absolutely barking part of it all is that even if it ended a war I still don't feel right about it. Life's a life no matter whose it is. So I can at least do some good here and try to balance it out. But I'm glad I don't remember all of it. I think it'd do me in if I did.
[Rose waits a moment, like she's trying to see if anything else is going to pop out without her wanting it. When it doesn't, she turns the feed off.]
So there've been a few returns in with the new arrivals this month. It's probably the thing here that makes me think it's got to be random, what goes on. Some things are inevitable and might start to fall into a pattern, but that? There's never any reason for some people to disappear, and when the off chance comes round and they're back? It's just as mysterious. I can't think of a single reason for it. Only time there seems to be a reason for anything is when we assign it one -- kind of like when us Wardens come here and make our deals.
[A frown. She folds her arms on her desktop.]
...Y'know I haven't made one? I have no idea what I want from the Admiral yet. Too scared to wish for something when in time I might realize I need something else even more. I tore open a TARDIS and stared into her heart to save someone I love. I can't even remember how I did it anymore -- it's blocked up in my head, like it's forbidden. That's enough for me to know I did something I shouldn't have under normal circumstances. And I can't remember what happened right after that, either. Not all of it. [A wince] But I know I was angry. And I know the Dalek Emperor and the half-million soldiers he brought with him don't even exist anymore.
[She rests her chin on her arms.]
The absolutely barking part of it all is that even if it ended a war I still don't feel right about it. Life's a life no matter whose it is. So I can at least do some good here and try to balance it out. But I'm glad I don't remember all of it. I think it'd do me in if I did.
[Rose waits a moment, like she's trying to see if anything else is going to pop out without her wanting it. When it doesn't, she turns the feed off.]
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Date: 2011-03-12 06:46 pm (UTC)If you're worried about not having one, of course.
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Date: 2011-03-12 05:19 pm (UTC)I hope that whoever you saved is grateful. Staring into the heart of a TARDIS...to put it lightly, it's not a good idea.
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Date: 2011-03-12 06:42 pm (UTC)As for doing what you didn't -- you're already a better person than me, Doctor. I'm sure that counts even at moments when enraged and mad with power.
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Date: 2011-03-12 07:34 pm (UTC)...
But at least you slaughtered the Daleks. You shouldn't pity them; they'd destroy your world too given a chance.
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Date: 2011-03-12 07:42 pm (UTC)And others being wrong or evil doesn't excuse a person to do something they normally wouldn't. Like kill.
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Date: 2011-03-12 07:47 pm (UTC)Could I ask about the Dalek who didn't want to kill? My sector of space has only been recently recovering from war with the Daleks. And Cybermen, actually. Bit of a rough century it just got out of.
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Date: 2011-03-14 08:27 am (UTC)Suppose it wouldn't help to remind you that you wiped out an entire race that went mad with self-loathing.. And if they had the awareness to understand it, they would have wished for death.
[He blinks. Have a very serious, slightly broody look, Rose.]
There are things I haven't told you.
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Date: 2011-03-14 04:31 pm (UTC)[At that, she winces a little. Rolling her head back and glancing up and around in an 'oh God here it comes' sort of gesture]
Course there are.
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